你怎麼知道你的醒不是她刻意的安排與善心.

我當然不知道她的用心, 但有一點我很確定, 你之所以受傷是因為你對她有期待. 期待她以相同的姐弟情感來對你. To her, it's a business, but to you, it's love, that's why you got hurt.

I don't believe in absolute Black and White, a lot of time, it's in the gray zone, means, she may have some feelings about you, the same kind of feeling you have on her, otherwise you wouldn't be feel that way.

So, don't feel bad, just moving forward from this point, life has so much to explore, to accomplish, see what I have started since 45, it's my 2nd life can you believe, so fresh, so challenge, so exciting....each year I only plan for one year to live, I try to live like it's the only year I have left for this life. Never enough my dear brother, just never enough for me to taste the life. 

Hey, it doesn't matter how people feel about you, but it does matter how you position them in your heart.  Don't feel disappointed. After all, she accompanied you through a great period of your life.

Helen