i always think that i can see things clearly, the appearance, the nature, something like that...

and i do believe having clear views can make me stronger than ever, at least in spirit...

last month, i went to Montauk, the east of Long Island, saw the sea with some emotions, even the weather was pretty damn terrible

i suddenly got a confused thought... i see things clearly, but do i see myself clearly?

i tried to convince myself that this thought was definitely wrong, since it was so absurd...

i didnt stay long due to the weather

for the past one month, i totally forgot this quesion and i was noticed by a friend in a nonsensical conversation last night

and i was sleepless last night.

seems like that i was making troubles for myself....

from that day with that message

i was always telling myself that...

no matter how good they were

some need to be forgot

but obviously, i'm fooling myself...

can someone tell me how to start a fresh start..?