My father loves  me very mush, but he always doesn’t be happy , (because he was in debt). He always limited us( because he had no money and he was worry us). He had not bean me, but I feel that I have no childhood

No swimming, no biking and no playmates

So I decided from I am a little girl , I will never look somebody’s face, I will never take money from people, maybe I have the personality , I did not stand somebody up if he/she give his face. Maybe it becomes a death wound when I become a manager.