i dreamed a dream....

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he'll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed....

以上是英國歌唱選秀節目蘇珊(Susan Boyle)爆紅的名曲，

取自歌劇「悲慘世界」，她在初選時唱的Yutube版本，http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

聽過不下一百次，即使在第一百次，

還是會不禁淚流滿面，或許一部分是因老大姊

面對眾人等著看笑話、無厘頭式的反應，與滄桑的

歌聲產生極大的對比震憾，

但主要還是這歌詞，

說的不就是自己的心境，

尤其現在的自己，

就像最後一段白描的，

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed....

要不是自己還有心智成熟的一面，

早就把大學時每次和死黨走過校門前天橋時必說的「通關密語」...,

「每次走到這裏，就很想體會凌空飛翔的感覺」這句看似玩笑的話當真來實現，

isn't life killing me...,

even though my old and wild dreams

have all died out yet....