Needless to say, I can fully understand the comment of readers you now.

And, of course, let it be the open secret.

(I will very apperciate.) 

I have disappeared for a long period, and the reason is evident,

without explaining. 

What I want to share is the review of those horrible days.

(No kidding, until yesterday did I live in.)

First of all, it is the most important in the meanwhile.

When I slept only 4 hours per day, I felt hungry EVERY MOMENT.

More than that, I found that I raised the level in  definition of delecious food.

(Perhapse this is the factor why I ALWAYS feel hungry.)

Second, no matter how I wnat to do the job well, 

there wes ALWAYS having numerous flaws!

No body liked to experiment it at all, I promise.

Third, I usually in depression.

Everything went wrong, and I couldn't stop it.

I was nothing.

Everyone dislikes me since a strange time point and I didn't know when.

Why couldn't I?

Forth, I broke all promise and routines.

I told myself: I was too busy, and I had to make a list.

So, the routines put at last, and promise as well.

(Well, it is easy to image that those thing are the last important,

compared with matters which has deadline.)

I also can sward that when you began to think your jobs like this,

you would find that deadline is ALWAYS beside you

until you finish on time or you delay to submit. 

It's never done in earily days.

The last one is that I felt time elipsing in both fast and slow.

When I couln't solve some problems, time elipsed so fast like rocket;

controversely, when I gave up to do it and waited for blaming,

time elipsed like living a year.

That's all I want to say to those terrible days.

Time management is very, very, very essential.

For healthy life, for well performance, for saving money!