I keep walking and walking every day due to the reason that I want to walk out from the sadness of losing my mom.

Yesterday was an amazing day. I woke up earlier and started to enjoy my days in different ways. While buying a sandwich, an egg roll with corns and a cup of milk tea, the owner of the breakfast shop popped out with a sincere question, “I’ve not seen your mom for quite a long time." This simple question shocked me, but I decided to respond it lightly with the positive attitude. “I replied her, “My mom passed away on April 13 peacefully." She couldn't believe what she just heard and responded naturally by proposing another question, “Why so quick?" “Luckily, she didn't leave extra burdens for you guys." Yeah, suddenly, one thought came into my mind and I talked to myself secretly, “My mom always treats me nicely, even she left no burdens for me. She just left silently and peacefully. She wanted to leave a good image of a kind and friendly mom who is good at cooking, who always tries her best to do whatever she could do to her loved ones. She sets up a marvelous example for us and wakes me up to appreciate the beauty of having a healthy body.

Another amazing thing is that I was crazy about making my own rubber stamps by sculpting the erasers. I’ve found something else to enrich my life, and I’ve figured out that “Doing something by myself is always a method to help me calm down, think of something personally, plan for the future and examine what I’ve done or what should I do to make my own days. I designed several lovable styles and figures, such as fruits, flowers, trees, and houses. My favorite one is the “Grapes.”

There was another touching event which made me cry with happy tears. My niece’s teacher assigned them to write someone a letter to express their gratitude and appreciation toward a certain person, and my niece wrote a letter to her grandmother, my mother. The content of the letter with the childish and naïve tones was well-expressed her love and true affection toward her grandmother. She even mentioned about a surprising news which was concerning about her father has already turned into a better man and he will behave himself well and play his roles well. What a girl Sing is! She proposed a childish but sincere question, “Have you enjoyed your meals? Are you full? Do you like the meals which are prepared by us? How have you been recently? Do you miss us?” Actually, those sincere questions are all mine in my bottom of heart. She wishes her grandmother the best and wishes her stay young, healthy, beautiful and happy all the time in the heaven.

Mom, I miss you a lot, but I will turn those affections into positive and determined determinations of keeping myself happy, healthy and energetic by exercising every day.

Take care of yourself, I will take good care of myself as well.