I could not ask why, I always thought that he would turn out to be fine and healthy.
I did not go to the hospital to see him even once.

after he had passed away,
I missed him so much,
I felt so sorry for what I had done to him.
I even did not know why I had been so cold blooded when i heard that he was so sick in hospital,
I just had forgetten his pain and suffering.
could he forgive me for my apthetic
honestly that was not real me,
I hope the time could bring him back,
I hope that good memory could come back once,
to allow me to see him again,