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. . 從1991的六月六, 至今的六千兩百多個日子, 狗寶寶, 我心愛的寶貝, . . May 2007 June 2007 July 2007
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趁狗寶休息時, 抱起我的狗寶寶坐在沙發椅上.
July 2008 Dear Friends: It is over. Dog passed away at 3:58 pm , I am trying to get used to the idea of life without him, my sweet baby for 17 years, my most faithful follower. He had been the support of my spirit and been the reason why I had to work for a living. I spoke to him out-loud last Sunday afternoon on his daily ride. I thanked him for his 17 years' UNCONDITIONAL LOVE and accompany with me. I told him I am learning to let him go if he is ready. He was quiet but I knew he was listening. After the ride his condition went down much faster, he did not get up on his legs to walk again. Monday morning, he was on his loveseat watching me preparing things to go for work, he did not move but he was watching. I went back and kissed him many times before I closed the door. When I got back home from work, he lay on the floor amoung pools of his bloody vomit fluit, he obviously got up and walked to the kitchen floor to vomit and could not get up again. I knew I could not delay his departure any longer, not to the day of after July 4th as planned. Later on Monday's night, He was so quiet, did not ask any thing or activities. He did not close his eyes at all while I stayed beside him whole night. He vomited twice during the night. I knew I could not wait till Wednesday after my presentation. It had to be sooner. I called at 8:15 am to make appointment for 4:30 pm . The presentation at work was bad. I could not concentrate on what I was talking. No matter, My BabyDog was more important to me. I worked till 11:30 and left the building to rush back home. Again, he lay on his own vomiting pool, this time on the carpet beside the Loveseat, he had no energy to walk to kitchen area. I held my baby to the yard for him to do his last check, neighbor came to say good-bye to him, told him he will have good friends in Heaven. I cleaned BabyDog to make his beautiful fur shinning white again. My sister and I planned to walk dog on the park one last time. It was a hot afternoon even under the shade that Dog could only stand and shaking on the ground not being able to move further. I gave him water he sipped, firm and slow. We tried to let him take time and walk a little bit more. Seeing him waving his body and not be able to walk, at 3 pm, I held him up and walked across the street to the clinic. They did not say other word but "the room is prepared for you." They gave us time to stay with dog. Holding my baby this last moment, he was very quiet and knew the meaning of all these. Finally, I held him and asked him "is this a YES? is it time? are you ready?" He had not been able to use his noise to touch my fist as an answer for a long time so he breathed a sigh to tell me yes lightly. I knew he was ready. Therefore, I agreed to let the Viet injected the fluid and his heart stopped within 5 seconds. It was 3:58 pm . My Baby. I woke up twice last night by his usual peeing time. Walking around the house, calling for my Babydog, even though, I knew he was not here physically. My brain and my heart mixed all feelings. I am trying to take the fact into my life, but it is so hard. He was with me every pleace whereever I went. In the kitchen, in rooms, sitting on his Loveseat, everything I did, he always paid great interest. I know him no longer waiting here for me. But, how I wish he could be here waiting when I open the door. Please share my Love to my BabyDog and give your prayer to him to guide him to the right place in Heaven, I made him promised to reserve a place for me and wait for me there for I will joint him one day happily. Love . . 1997秋末 湖邊散步留影. 此情此景, 永存回憶. . . . |
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